Last weekend, was one of those low and depressing moments I have experienced. An experience which I have grown to be familiar with. It was the time of the month again for our "good friend" to visit and she came anyway as an unvited, unwelcomed guest. I was a bit positive at first when there was no sign of her for the first 2 days and lo and behold... she came nevertheless...hope crashed, another fruitless month, another month of waiting, praying, hoping, waiting...the cycle that I have been finding hard to break.
Through these long and weary months of waiting, I have learnt that time is a relative factor. The "time" that human considered as too soon, too late, too long, too short does not really matter in God's Kingdom. Time is in His Hand.... every minute, every second. What He wants us to do is to commit our time into His Hands so that He can orchestrate His perfect timing. Profound?
I asked MooMoo last Sunday "Does anyone really understands how I feel? (other than God)". He was silent at first but found a book in our book shelf called "From Barreness to Fruitfulness" by Frank Damazio and read the first chapter to me. Uncontrollable tears just trickled down my eyes when I listened to the experience of Frank and his wife who tried for years without being successful in conceiving. I was able to identify with the anguish, frustration, pain and the myrid of emotions described in the book. For once, I'm convinced that someone understood... I'm not alone. God led them to triumphant victory as they experienced breakthrough...they adopted 2 children and God also blessed them with 2 more of their own. Too late? Too long a wait? Well, not in God's timing at least.
Now to the paradox... just when I thought life brings with it much sorrow than joy, more tears than laughter... I heard that TJ had succeed in his proposal to his beloved girlfriend HS. The proposal was plotted with much fanfare and many of our ministry friends were involved in making this possible. Friends who shouted across from the river taxi "HS, would you marry TJ?", conspired to invite HS out for a drink, capture the process in video, played guitar etc.... what a joy for both of them.
At the other side of town, I heard that a colleague of mine, PY had just filed for divorced. A very sad episode where her husband admitted to infidelity and betrayed the trust the basis of their marriage. They have known each other for nine years, married for one and a half years, just moved in to their new flat and just made a booking for their wedding banquet at a five star hotel... now everything collapsed. I can imagine the magnitude of the pain that PY is now going through is indescribable. I pray that God will reveal His love to her and heal the wound in her heart.
The paradox of life.
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